missing you

Missing you so much now. I'm sinking again as the anniversary of your death approaches. Four years already. missing you

Happy Mothers Day Mom. I miss you. You were the best mom a girl could have. Happy Mothers Day daughter-in-law. You are a great and loving mom to my precious granddaughter. Happy Mothers day to all moms. I miss my sweet boy on mothers day, but I am so fortunate to have my other boys and Merry Sunshine. Life is good.

Happy Holidays

Merry Christmas and Happy 2008 to all.

My wishes for 2008 are:

1. A healthy and happy grandbaby;

2. Continuing education for my college son;

3. A safe and happy life for Merry Sunshine;

4. Job security for my husband;

5. Job security for me (no one to run against my boss);

6. Prosperity for those who need it most;

7. AN END TO THIS RIDICULOUS WAR.

Go Democrats !

Yeah !!! Justice at last. Now we will finally see an end to this ridiculous war. Good riddance to the arrogance of the Republicans. Peace at last.

Heartbroken

To my sweet boy, on the anniversary of your death. A year today. You died on a beautiful October day. No one should die on such a beautiful day. I woke up to a day full of sunshine and promise, only to learn that my beloved boy had died. I have so much to say to you, but my heart is broken, still. The pain is never far, even though we all go on with our lives, somehow. I'm afraid I am having a crisis of faith. It's hard for me to even say those words. I always found such comfort in God. I hope to find my way back someday. For now, I just miss you. I ache for you. I think about you always. So do your brothers. Today we will get together and celebrate your life. We know that you loved us and would not have wanted to leave us so early. My beautiful sunshine boy. So many people were touched by your life. So many people have told me of kind things you did for them. A friend of yours told me of the time a few weeks before you died, when she went in your shop for a haircut. You could sense that she was stressed out, and insisted on washing her hair. She said that the gentle way you washed her hair and massaged her scalp, all the while listening to her talk, relaxed her. You knew that it was just what she needed. You had such a generous heart. You were such a loyal friend. I take comfort in those stories. You were loved by so many people, especially by me and your brothers and your nanny and your uncles. So much love. My heart is broken, but it is full of love for you. I love you forever, Mom.

Confusion

To my sweet boy - A year ago today, you were still here. I talked to you on the phone. I said "I love you. See you tomorrow." A year ago tomorrow you died. Now every tomorrow is changed - sad. I miss you so much it hurts. Sometimes it was so difficult being your mom. You seemed to look for trouble. I tried to show you that life didn't have to be so hard. In the end I couldn't save you. I hope you know that you brought me so much joy and you certainly made life interesting for all of us. We miss you and love you with all of our hearts, my sweet boy. Death is so hard to understand. Where are you? Are you happy? Are you at peace? Do you know that we would do anything to get you back here with us? Did you know how much we loved you? I hope that this time on earth is really our "short time" together, and that we will be together again some day. I long to hold you in my arms, to touch your sweet face and feel the warmth of your love. Until we meet again, I will hold you in my heart. I will love you forever. Mom